Gleam of sun comes with imagination practice. Don't know the correct word but the game is to sit on bike and think how good you ride. When I'm on the track I don't miss anyone or anything. I don't know how people feel when they are high but that what they have told sounds same how I feel when I'm on the track. Even when I think I'm riding. Althought my concentrating doesn't let me do that more than 15min. And I shake again.
My riding has been getting on really well lately. I watch videos from last World Champs and almost everyone jump or manualed the first jump. I have decided to not try to hold the manual long. I just pedal fast and pump the best I can and land on my back wheel. And start to pedal again. I think it will be the best way for me.