Manuals are about on the same level whatthey were in the end of last summer. Almost everytime I get them nearly all the way ;) It confuces me how I have been 5 months struggling with them. Just haven't been able to get it not by laughing and not even with cry. Jumps has got better. I should push myself to take next step.
Meaning when you are learning something the first times feel uncomfortable. You just got to keep on trying and it will become fun. BUT is the uncomfortable feeling of trying new things gonna ever go away, even if you would be trying new things constantly. I'm pushing myself to do new things all the time but still having kind of brakes on. It's inside my head!
This is little bit different but someway the same: Next to dirt jumps is small and lumpy pump track. The worst I have ever seen. Anyway other ones have been able to ride it and do thousand manuals on it. It's small so manuals looks kinda easy. But when I have been just pumping thru it has felt so bad that never want to go again. Yesterday my coach made me to ride it. I rode and it didn't feel good. I sayd to the coach that it just doesn't work, not at all! I tryed make us change the place. Coach made me to go again. I went but came back with noding my head; "what a crap". She told me to go again. I went and came back still noding my head. Coach stopped me: "you have to start to give yourself some credit. You just got manual at the track. You never say anyting good. Give yourself credit that you keep on trying again and again! If you continue pushing yourself down you don't have any reason to be here. You better go back to you home country" Coach was so tortured about me being negative that it made me laugh. I went again and got it, so I did another manual too. It was even better than the first. I came back and said; the first one were good because of... and I'm glad for the other one because of... I went again. It didn't come out as good as the last round. I went back to the coach and said "that was good because I wasn't so stiff". Again and again. It was fun! Everytime I succeed in something. There is always something good so why keep on thinking the bad things?!
I believe that by our own way of thinking we are able to eliminate the negative feelings from trying new things. I just need to practice my mind A LOT! As much as you need physics and skills in sports, your mind can take you from extremity to another!