Just to avoid anyone starting to worry. Past week I have had weird feeling. I have made a self diagnose; loneliness. At the same time I don't feel lonely! But on the other hand, when I have to cook, only one hand rises up. And that is just because my left hand is holding up my right hand. When I got to get to the track, there is only one driver available. And when car brokes down, there is only me. Yesterday I got one BMX family to take my bike for today's race. So I rode 10km holding on with other hand of my 20" bike handlebar and the other hand on 24" bike. When I got there, I found out I'm in wrong place. At this weekend there started to be too many of those small adversities. I were just thinking; how much one person had to fight thru. And the very same moment crank fall off from my bike. Yes, I'm also "fixing" my bikes BY MYSELF. Here is main points from the "Raappana's" song:
Now I'm by myself
None of us can give up
Loneliness
Homeless, like snail which has lost its conch
On the way to my dream I head many problems
I'm eating by myself, almost talking to myself
On dark night, independence doesn't feel like blessing
After all, you are the master of your own destiny