The times when I have used the sugar has made to lock my guard. Right after finishing the drinks starts the thinkin: "what could I eat next?". I freeze coz I get scared that am I gonna fail this good thing now. I have make it thru to next day and when I wake up everything is good. And I defenately know that I don't wanna go there. I used to have that fight in my head all the time. I don't wanna live with that feeling!
Sometimes it feels like that people who are living healthy are pushing their healthy habbits too much. All the time posting what they have being eating or how much they run this week. They are not doing that because they want to show others how well they are going. They are just so hype about the feeling it gives them so they wanna share that to others. Eating healthy gives me good and long lasting good feeling. Eating brownie gives me good taste in my mouth for 5 minuted and I'm not feeling good at all for next 15 hours. I still do hope that one day I can eat piece of cake and leave it there. No more sweets, so I won't lose it all and became fatface again. You probably understand what I'm talking about if I tell you that my nickname used to be creamy pastry (althoug that name had few other reasons, but can't deny it wouldn't be part of that how much I loved sweets). Soon the sugar strike is finished, but I will keep everything the way they are now.
p.s. wups this was meant to be bmx blog. My riding is getting on good. Getting better on manuals, jumps and gates!! More of those on my next post.