I think this all started yesterday when I were chatting with my friend all night long. Once again someone where questioning why I have become a hermit. I simply answered that because I don't like people. Well I do like good company and I even think that I like people more that averige. Normally people do shirk their own company. How can you be in the company without any tension if you all the time have the afraid of being alone. You are supposed to be in the company because you like others not because you don't like to be alone.
Everyone seems to have their own picture how I will get lost from sosiety and not see anyone for 50 years. Came on, I haven't been at my cottage for 1 day without visiting city. So there is no need to be scared of me becoming real hermit. And even if I would do that, I can tell it would be conscious decision. In that case I do recommend everyone of you thinking of doing the same ;) If someone decides to walk on footpath and avoid the highways it doen't mean that she (or he) is doing something wrong or that she is lost or anything. It's easy to roll on on highway, just follow the others. But once you hit something you hurt yourself badly. Someone might have consciosly decided to use highway. No one else can tell how aware the other one really is.
For a first I got insulted how people are judging me. I think it thru many times. This is the reason I don't like people. It feels like I'm never accepted the way I am. Others doesn't accept what I do or what I am, but I do. That's it! I do accept myself the way I am. I don't need to explane anymore, it's enough that I know. What a feeling!!!! :)
Tomorrow I feel see one walking specialist. Inthe beginning I had pain in one point of my calf. Now, after 2 weeks physioteraphy, it's hurting in tibia, ankle, and knee. Well at least we got the pain in calf fixed.