Blaah, I talked on phone with friend of mine. Somehow we got conversation about my blog and that I haven't been posting that much lately. I told him that I have been sick for a month so there is not much to tell. He comment back: "then that's what you should tell". So I have been sick for a month. Everytime I think I'm not sick anymore and I go to do some training. The fever comes back. I clearly see how I'm more and more tense all the time. It's like non stop pressure inside me (or inside my head). Now I decided do my best of getting better. This is my new "breakfast": Few vitamin products, actic acid bacterial, Chaga mushroom extract, homeopathy products, cod-liver oil, aloe vera juice and "pipe" for healing my lungs.

This sickness must end soon! Can't take it no more! I wanna train!! I went to BMX track yesterday to introduce Suunto hearth rate monitor company to BMX. Some weeks ago I were over at their place to tell them what I do and why and how heart rate monitors could help me with my sport. And now company workers came to the track. It was a great pleasure to me to have them at the track. We had fun and also I'm really happy to see this successful Finnish company to be interested of BMX! My lungs wasn't that excited about it but after the Suunto left I saw snowboardcrosser Matti Suur-Hamari at the track. Because there is no snow right now he trains at BMX track with mountain skateboard. He came to the track with Finnish national team snowboardcross coach and freestyle coach. What an awesome people everyone of them. Specially I recommend to check Matti's story. He represented Finland in last para olympics, because his is missing left leg from knee down. Anyways, I got to try Matti's board and his coaches where super supportive and encouraging! That's like dream to me, to have someone to train with or even a coach who helps you to get better! It was awesome to ride to board on the track!! Now I got to go to sleep. I think I'm starting to get better. Next time I try to remember to tell you my new weight lost and best shape of my life project. I'm kinda self-conscious about it, but it's gonna be great!! :)

Clip from my boardcross, I was just about to take off.. :) http://instagram.com/p/tFyAJbJRBV/

Wou, I just mean  wou!! I was driving a the car and I heard the radio talkshow about constructive interaction. There was really great points, something that I would like to get better at! This got me to return to old habits. I remembered meditation and other mental exercises. I finally dug out the book, Jon Kabat-Zinn Mindfulness book, but I just can't find the specific name. To many of you this probably sounds like some goofing, but you are interested in meditation, or any kind of mind control, here is a good basics.

On top of all this, I found the time to watch an interview with Sarah Walker, which I had previously skipped. In an interview Sarah tells about the work what she is doing to pursue her mind to develop as an athlete, and also as a person. I know exactly what Sarah is talking about. She explains how her psychologist inspires her and question her action. In New Zealand, I worked with the same psychologist. That man is incredible, and his message is even more incredible! He is not a hippie or nothing, but he smiles genuinely every single time when you meet him. He will help you to believe in yourself. He will help you to set right value on things​​. He will help you not to be afraid of failing.

This what I'm saying, is the base of being in balance as a person, which is again the base of being an athlete. It may sound like plain words which you here everyone saying but no one acting. And that's what it is mostly. That's what it is as long as you start to practice them. Simple exercises to fail, and to believe in yourself. All you need to do is make the small exercises and to believe in them!

My tips for everyone, whether you are an athlete or not, you'll do better in life when:
1. Learn patience. Pour a matchbox on the floor and pick them up one by one. While doing that thinking that you are patient. Do this every day, rather even several times a day.
2. Learn to fail. Fail when others can see it, but you do not need to explain anything to anyone. This helps you to understand that it doesn't change anything.
3. Learn to believe in yourself. Every day, when going to sleep just think the things where you were good today.
4. Learn to live in this moment. For example take simple raisin and look at it for 5 minutes. You are viewing the colors and wrinkles, just like it would be something unprecedented. You can smell it, listen to it and maybe even taste it. In the same way you are supposed to feel the bike while riding. You'll feel the wheels on the ground, you feel your every muscle.

Next, you might be racing the most important race this far. Knowing that you can only do your best. Living in the moment and being calm, and you are not afraid to fail.