Sweet, finally I found some time to be on computer. I'm swetting on exercise bike and an hour more to go. I did my best for avoiding this enjoyment. I were playing with kids. Running after them in the hosue and teaching them new tricks. Four years old Sterling almost learn to do back flip. And then I heard the voice of mom of the family:" Outi, you know flat tire on roadbike doesn't mean that you don't have to do the training. Get yourself on the exercise bike!". You know, you better do what moms tells you to :)

Yeah, on my way to practice I stopped to take these few photos. Clock was about to hit 11am and the ground were still frosted. It didn't take long to warm up tho, and we had an awesome practice!

I apologies for not having time to write here. I think I have some photos, at least I should have heaps of videos.. Time is just running and have no chance to catch up. Worlds will be soon as. My program just changed and it's way easier now, at the same time I'm twice as busy as I used to. I should take it easy (not happening) should watch BMX videos, to swim (for recovering).. Simply I hardly have done half of the jobs I were meant to do today!

Last weekend I had a race and I manage to get all the way to finals.. well of course I got to finals, but I were racing with guys, so it was pretty tuff. In finals in 1st turn I made nice move from outside to in and blocked couple guys (I guess they crashed). In 2nd turn one who had stayed up, tried to take it back, but I got him to brake down and ended up to be 5th I quess. Yehaa.

I will (try to)send some photos tomorrow :)

The house sitting is history now. All the fishes, both cats, lizard and even the aupair who came home 2weeks before the family are still alive. This in I will be staying with family Stevens-McNab. This is actually the place where I were supposed to come 5 months ago. Kids; 2 times World Champ Lachie (9years old), W4 from last year Wyatt and 4 years old Strerling. Wonderful people! Let's see how I will keep up with their life. This family owns 2 rafting companies and they are the ones who took me rafting on my bday at March. Now I will have progate at my home, to use every day!!! Go to check Lachie's websites.

Just imaging how fast the ground will go under yourself if you ride seriously fast. I have got faster lately and I can really notice that when everything needs to happen faster.. Today I saw a video of my riding. hmmm. I'm satisfied with somethings, but telling the truth it looks like I'm not even trying. Well, I hadn't plan to show that to you but I will.. Quality is bad as, and I don't know why :(

Last Wednesday I took part to weekly club race. After the race I recognize some people feeling bad how rude I'm riding. Or I don't know does they call my riding rude, because they doesn't talk to me about it. When I go from gate I take the room from otherones. I go for inside line. In the turns I will take advantage if someone leaves room to go and block them. One second you think; should I? And you don't need to do it anymore because they have block you out. It's simple; the one going in front can pick the line she (or he rides). If you are not in front of the otherone you can not block them. If you pull back, it's your problem. Sue Walker manage to calm me down by saying: you got to remember, they are only 14-15 years old". That's true, they are kids! They can talk behind the back because that's were I left them ;)

I take a deep breath. It's hard. Love. Again snot runs from my nose. Why now? Is this never gonna end? Two years ago I left most amazing person in Espoo, Finland. I just couldn't be there no more. It felt like I had to hang wall paper of stars coz I couldn't reach to sky. Two weeks has passed easily by crying every day. I'm telling myself it was the only choice I had. I left him because of BMX but I would not leave BMX because of him. Should be easy. I remind a drug addict with my shaking. I got stomach bug again :( and most likely fever also. It's funy how it feels it would make some difference if you would see the numbers on thermometer. Seriously what would it change?

Gleam of sun comes with imagination practice. Don't know the correct word but the game is to sit on bike and think how good you ride. When I'm on the track I don't miss anyone or anything. I don't know how people feel when they are high but that what they have told sounds same how I feel when I'm on the track. Even when I think I'm riding. Althought my concentrating doesn't let me do that more than 15min. And I shake again.

My riding has been getting on really well lately. I watch videos from last World Champs and almost everyone jump or manualed the first jump. I have decided to not try to hold the manual long. I just pedal fast and pump the best I can and land on my back wheel. And start to pedal again. I think it will be the best way for me.

Finally I have got my jersey for World Champs to be ready. Below there is picture how it came out like. Have I copied NZ when I decided to make black jersey? Nah, I really tried to avoid using black, but it was simply only color looking good. Blue was a. ugly and b. with the lion it looked like too much Swedish.

I'm happy :) It was a big job to make this. I hope next year Finnish cycling union has official jersey that everyone can buy from them, like other countries have. Yes and jersey need to be good to use in BMX. I heard a question that why BMX always needs to have something different. Well, last year when I was going to World Champs I asked our union about the jersey and the answer was that I'm not allowed to use jersey what cycling union has. I think that answers the question ;

I didn't mind that I couldn't use that jersey. Jersey is about from 1980's and also having that roadcycling condom on me.. it's not representative sight.

P.S. I know those adverticings needs to be modified.. rules rules.. :/

Just to remind. This was the jersey design for Worlds 2012: